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In the face of a week of hellified work to do, I am sitting on my couch thinking about poetry. I’m watching Def Poets and I thinking that poets can sometimes be incestuous with their styles. I’ve been searching for my voice, my poetic voice, for years now. I am loving the free flow of Giovanni. I call it the free flow because she sounds like she’s just speaking so naturally. I’m in love with Ursula Rucker. I can’t describe her style but I’m in love with her words. She’s sexy and insightful at the same time. She makes me want to be deep with my words, but I don’t feel like being deep. I want the words to manifest on screen and bleed in ears and fill bellies like food for thought that aint for the thinking. I am about to be poetic, so if you don’t feel it or it doesn’t feed your soul, then you’ll find my apologies hanging in the winds with explanations of poems past.

Thought Text: Restless

words come to me in the passage of rhythm
ear canal connects to audio love
loving the music
loving the words
loving the lovely loving ones
and thoughts connect to words
like speech makes movement
like movement makes things happen
like things happening to me when I connect with
thought text
i want my words to hang in the air like magic
i want my words to hang in the ear like mystery
i want my words to hang those against me
vengeance connects through words
hurting my enemies
hurting my loved ones
hurting those that don’t get me
and this aint hard to understand. . .
random ruminations run circles in my mind
tracing paths of intended word play
that never quite make it to manifestation my daydreams are inspired by songs of pain
songs of abstract love
songs of those things I’ll never have
and my wishes sometimes never make it past
i travel across roads that lead to nowhere
looking for expressions to sooth my soul
but i am restless
my worries, my fears, my hurts, my wants
my desires, my needs, my failings, my happiness
my life
exists
sometimes
only in thought text
i wish these words could make me the whole man
that i need to be
i wish these degrees could comfort these demons
of insecurity
yet their screams are never quiet
never quite quelled
never too far away from my thoughts
showing up in my speech
in my tears at night
deep in my soul’s quest to be rested
in this life
i am dancing to rhythms that free me from this world
i listen to forget
i listen to be sane
i listen to be happy
the simplicity of sound
infinite words from infinite voices
all swirling around
in my thought text....

-- "Thought Text: Restless" (c) 2006 PoetiQ Sense Of Non